Handicapped VS Ignorance

I'm so very fuckin happy to be home again! As I came home from a very trying morning of errands I realized how very lost I would be without my "to do list". May times while I was navigating my way through town stopping at various store for one thing or another, I'd find myself dependent upon this list to reference where I'm going and what I NEED to purchase as opposed to what I WANT to purchase. I'd never venture out into "the wild" without taking precautions!

While putting away all the various groceries and such, I contemplated what could have happened if somehow in my travels I'd lost my list. I literally started to feel uneasy. My stomach started to turn and I could feel my throat tighten up a bit. Then I could feel and hear my heartbeat in my ears... all this over just thinking about loosing my damn to do list! I thought of whether I would be able to recall the order in which to go to each store & what items to purchase. My mind was BLANK! I felt like I was back in school, seconds away from taking a major test! I could only imagine that this must be how some elderly dementia patients feel. At this point if you asked me what my name was I could've had a total meltdown.

Then I imagined this situation being the blunt end of jokes everywhere. Which reminded me of a page I recently read about on Facebook. Apparently the page was hacked & the original admin who created it was kicked off of her page! The page had about 35,000 "likes" was now being run by trolls who think it's cool to post things about people with down syndrome, eating aborted children, pedophilia and so on.... you get the picture. Just to put it out there, I'm not going to get into how wrong this is because HELLO Captain Obvious, paging Captain Obvious!! There simply is no need to.

 As I remembered to breath deep, it became clear to me the point is we're all handicapped in some way. Sure, some more than others but still.... We know that being handicapped or diabled just refers to an impairment or deviation from the norm whether physical, cognitive, mental, sensory, emotional, developmental or a combination of these. Well hell!!! We're all handicapped in one way or another!! We must be since no person I've ever encountered in my 41 years of life has proven to be perfect at everything and without even slight flaws. Shit, I can name at least 50 or so people who take delight in deviating from the norm! The point here is that without my list I'm at a disadvantage... I'm handicapped and possably an emotional wreck. Sure that is LMAO funny, even to me. But what's really not funny is pure ignorance/ hate for something/someone you neither understand nor refuse to relate to.

So today my friends,  I give a Big FUCK YOU to the page "Sick of Being a doormat and verbal punching bag" (which BTW has been taken down - not sure if that's permanent.) for being the huge douchebags that you are! Congrats, you're ignorance trumps any current handicap known to man!!!   

To Blog or not to Blog????

Most of you know me by my Facebook page "Sometime you've just gotta say, Fuck You!". I've gotta say, I never imagined having 25,000 likes for a page of random pics/quotes and general bullshitting! I basically became inspired to start a page through another page that I "liked" way back about a year ago called "You say tomato, I say Fuck You". Seemed pretty straight forward so I figured I'd try it too. It really becomes very addicting after a while. You notice the minutes going by much faster then the hours start disappearing!
Along the way I noticed more pages that had blogs associated with them. I'd go on and read them, some cute ones about being a stay at home mom & some funny ones about how they hate this show etc...  all the while contemplating whether I wanted to try it for myself. It seemed like a whole lot of work to me. So I devised this list of why I've decided NOT to start a blog to convince myself not to blog.

#1 - Coming up with interesting subject matter. Really, what hasn't already been written? C'mon, seriously... not another "mommy blogger". Plus, in my opinion, I'm really not that funny or interesting enough to hold my own attention (see #4) let alone umpteen other peoples!
#2 - Commitment: I can't even commit myself long enough to finish ONE project. For example, where the walls meet the ceiling in my upstairs hallway aren't even painted correctly, at least 3 books I bought are 1/2 finished and I started crocheting a scarf that will probably never feel a winters chill. Finding time to finish all those should be excuse enough, right?
#3 - Guilt: I'd feel like a failure if I did this then didn't follow through. It's just too much pressure to handle since my 8 year old son, who I refer to as miniman, makes me feel guilty enough for not magically producing the OLDER brother he's always wanted!
#4 - OCD/ADD: No, technically I've not been clinically diagnosed with either one of these disorders..... and I'm not making any appointments anytime in the near future either! In other words I have a slight problem focusing because I'm always worried about making things "tidy" and "organized". This would be my BIGGEST reason for not having another child. I'd got batshitcrazy! One and done.... 

So I've decided to just stick to my Facebook page for now because it seems simple enough. But don't be surprised if you see a few "blogs" posted on there from time to time. ;)